Ramblings of a mental patient

Don’t you love it when you suddenly have significantly more money than you thought you did.

Yay for unexpected bonuses. I’m so tempted to blow this on technology…. Anybody wanna buy some old PC hardware?

Evidently the new changes to LJ had broken my method of embedding my journal page in my website. So, this morning, I sat down and rewrote how I was doing the embedding. I decided on using the public rss feed as the data source. For one thing, you can tell where one entry begins and ends. I have plans on archiving them in the future. Its rare I screen a comment. One of the benefits of being a shameless bastard.

Once that was complete, I realized I could use the same framework to embed my del.icio.us bookmarks too. The only problem was the latency as the rss feeds were fetched, parsed and formatted for display. I decided a look aside cache would fix the problem and set 2 up. Eventually I’ll do something more fancy, but for now I’m happy with how things are working.

Why must I always feel as though I’m at odds with myself? My mind is the place of scrimmage where my id and ego constantly wage a war that leaves my psyche in a perpetual state of upheaval. Which side of anything do I land on? I can be decent, honorable and kind, yet at the same time be vile, dishonest and corrupt. I revel in the sea of entropy surrounding me and readily admit my joy at man’s inhumanity to man. In the same breath I’ll extol the virtues of life and living things. Am I really a nihilist as I’ve been accused? I’d like to think I’m more of an epicurean than a nihilist, but what the hell do I know? Evidently I’m sufficiently morally inconsistent that there isn’t a name for it yet. Maybe duality is just in my nature. Is there such a thing as a temple of dichotomy? What would the followers of that church be called? Cats?

Here’s an awesome link to the ballsiest move I’ve witnessed. This guy free fell for over 20 miles (and broke the sound barrier while doing it). Dig the links & video.

I just found out that a band I liked a long time ago just put out a new album in 2005. This is after a 13 year break from the noise. And its been 13 years since I heard a racket that can compare to the unleashed spazz attack of The Accused. Now I gotta find an import store when I can pick up Oh martha!.

When the band broke up, I followed the musicians individually. Tom went off and formed Gruntruck, but they were typically seattle and I lost interest. Josh & Alex went off and formed Hot Rod Lunatics and I think their drummer went off and tried to produce rap artists. I have no idea. At any rate, from what I hear its going to be good to hear a brand new cacophony from these guys. Blaine kinda sounded like a tortured, insane muppet on meth (an angrier less operatic AC/DC if you will…). He rocked. This was splattercore. Not deathmetal with the guys grunting 4 octaves too low. This was a 4/4 beat taken to the limit of rhythm.. just before it turns into drilling with a cat in the blender.

Besides, you couldn’t beat the band’s marvelous mascot…. Martha. The undead brain eating, flesh tearing, people killing anti hero! I can only hope they tour…. I’m sure both of their fans in philly would show up.

I was cleaning up my home directory this morning and found this rockin (IMO) blurb about time. I can’t for the life of me remember where I got it or who said it. It entertains me to no end, anyone know what its from?

“I can convince myself that I am capable of imagining time going on forever (i probably cannot) but I cannot convince myself that time has already occured for an infinite amount of time.

When I try to think of time having already existed forever, then, I start to think about how some random configuration of particles that looked exactly like me has randomly been in this same spot, doing the same things I am doing…

WORSE, that this thing that looks and sounds like me and has the same name, has already done some of the things I’ve been meaning to do, and then I don’t feel like doing them, cause A, I already did them, and B, I’ll just have to do them again.

At which point the only thing I care to think about is the infinite other versions of me that have existed through time, sitting on a Lazy Boy recliner watching Cartoon Network all day, and give him a double thumbs up. Cause, in the end, that’s what it’s really all about. And that would be the clincher folks, undeniable proof that I am right.”

–
Unknown

I have the chills and an upset tummy. I think whatever Kat has is making its way to me. These are not friendly demons. These are evil, annoying demons. I fear my ass is haunted and I may injure myself as I lunge across the apartment leaping over startled cats, dizzy and disoriented. Fortunately all things must *haha* come to an end *haha*, and this can’t go on forever.

Now I sleep.

Kat’s currently home recovering from a nasty collision with what I can only assume is a nasty stomache virus. I’ll be stopping home at lunch and bringing her ginger ale and assorted tummy settling things. The good news is there doesn’t appear to be a fever, so I’m hoping this is one of those unfortunate stomach ailments that pass quickly (but not to me). I love you baby, I’ll check in on you later.

There’s been rumbling about Bush since he went into office. Today I noticed an incendiary articl at the top of the queue on digg. It seems that people are beginning to say out loud, and very publicly what many of us have talked about, but haven’t written down. Perhaps, just maybe, its time to impeach Bush. Personally I think it’d be a beautiful ending to a disgusting regime. Hell, if we can try to impeach Clinton over a BJ from an intern, we can probably make a case against a retard who breaks the law.

Then again, maybe we’d have better luck and see faster results petitioning Canada to invade and liberate us from our fascist dictator.

“Democracy is also a form of worship. It is the worship of Jackals by Jackasses.”
– Henry Louis Mencken

Kat’s at the maul and I’m geeking out. Watch ascii star wars. Open a terminal and telnet to towel.blinkenlights.nl. Leave the connection open, its kind of amusing.

If you read this and you happen to have a mac, you can make it sing. In the terminal run this command:

sudo osascript -e ’say “Dum dum dum dum dum dum dum he he he ho ho ho fa lah lah lah lah lah lah fa lah full hoo hoo hoo” using “Cellos”‘

(thats all one line)

So, yeah. Oh! Shiny thing…